28.7.08

to compete is to win.. a quote i saw from the movie fearless.. this quote make me realise the reason why i hav been losing.. in practically everything.. from some previous posts i mentioned tt i see no reason in competing but now, i realise the need.. many at times u will notice, some ppl ard u will do anything to win.. and they alw try to hide their thirst for winning but somehw hiding sth will reveal it even more..(maybe jus in my eyes) every little things some ppl do can show wad emotions and wad they are thinking now.. so this is finally wad my cousin even told me abt.. the power of mind.. the art of controlling it and manipulating it..

and i shall no longer degrade myself.. its time to returning to wad things used to be.. also to freeze those memories deep in the abyss of my heart..

till den.. another hellous week ahead.. tiramisu.. pls..

breezed..

26.7.08

things can nv turn the way u wan it to be.. this is wad i realise.. the more u wan it the more u wun get it..

went for the nefmq2008 today.. its was like from 10am to 5pm.. wtf.. dam long lor.. the prilimary rounds started at 1015.. den the qn was like king size hard la.. wad kind of shitty qn is tt sia.. nv even seen most of those terms asked.. wad supply elasticity etc.. nvm.. think we can break the record sia.. record for the lowest scoring team.... with a score of... 6/100?? tts roughly hw many marks i think we hav secured.. the rest, tikam la.. think wad letter suits tt qn den write tt as ans.. den open ended qn, jus anyhw huan lo.. den went for lunch.. lunch was like a 150 ppl serving for 200++ ppl lor.. so ppl dun even hav food aft queuing for like 15min.. we also managed a few spoons of fried rice nia.. so we went to the yusof ishak hse for food lor since my sis say there gt open during uni hols.. had subway and was flooded with vege many many.. wtf.. like eat vege with bread lidat nia.. den at the end all the meat suddenly appear den so salty.. returned to 'hell' aft lunch den see ppl compete in finals sia.. den in the last round, the dunman high ppl kio tio sai, win the vjc ppl by 2 marks, gt extra 300$ since the 3rd postion gt 500$ and 4th pos onli gt 200$.. den rj even worse.. lose 500$ because of last qn.. lol..

went hm to slack aft tt feeling tired.. burnt out aft 1 wk of mugging, bballing and some crappy stuff.. seriously, rayner is tired of his life.. someone pls take him away or liberalize him.. lol.. rayner is tired seriously.. mentally and physically..

till den..

"a true fren nv ask for returns but a true fren shld noe who helped him all the while.. instead of defining wad a true fren does, try finding who is a true fren with ur heart.."
-anonymous

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23.7.08

sometimes when a person changes, the person's habit and behaviour also changes..
sometimes u see things so near yet they actually are so far..
sometimes u think u noe someone yet u are the most unfamiliar person with tt person.. sometimes u think everything is under control is actually isn't..
sometimes u think ignorant can get ur way thru but somehw it jus irks u more.. sometimes when u see someone gd tt person is actually the wickest..
sometimes when u think u dun mind sth u actually mind abt it the most..
sometimes..
when u think simplicity is bliss, its nt..

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12.7.08

mid yr results finally out.. this is hw i fared tentatively before possible moderation..

PHY:36/100 U
MATHS:38/100 U
ECONS:43/100 S
GP:47/100 E
GSC:62/100 B

well.. well deserved results la.. did some reflection and analysis on my own..

for phy, i studied more of j1 work cos didn't hav enuf time for studying j2 topics.. so.. gt most of the scores from j1 topics like kinematics and dynamics and forces.. as for all those EMI and AC, was somewhr there la.. but guess rly nid more drilling for those topics.. as for quantom, its a big GG man.. mcq 5 qns tikam all wrong-.- if nt i can get at least at 24 or 25 for mcq liao lor.. so, from mcq i can say tt my concepts mostly are somewhr there its jus tt i nid more practice i think.. cos paper 1 is mostly abt concepts de mah.. moreover, was too helpless and careless for paper 3.. gotten 19/80.. see le alr noe sure fail phy.. well, miss tan is starting to drill us deeper by providing us with more remedial lessons and even offered to sacrifice her saturdays for us.. so i think we rly must jy bah.. esp those like me nv study a lot den fail de la..(ch ar-.-) cannot be affected by any other externalities and must be full speed ahead cos our class' performance rly SUCKS.. machiam paham-.-

for maths, sort of sian for paper 1.. expected to fare at abt 50+ 60 but end up getting a 39.. obviously gt some dif la.. basically was still like i alw do.. too careless.. do those errors that can make ah song puke her heart out wan=x as for paper 2, mine was a /45 paper basically.. 55 marks on stats and i gt like 20 onli?? full marks for CnP and binomial qn.. poisson normal and standardization was like getting 3 eggs lor.. moreover, i am weak with vectors.. gt like onli 8 marks out of the 2 qns asked which took up abt 30/200 of the paper.. so for maths, my aim is to start on stats and vectors.. doing stats now, hoping to start vector by the wk aft.. well, ah song was alr also offering remedial for us lor.. those who underperformed.. as compared to common test, i dropped by 5 grades.. so, maths shld also be manageable for the time being..

for econs, hav to say i was quite happy abt the outcome la.. went for consultation regarding the mid yr paper today and mdm loh was like saying i did improve la..=) hav to admit i was quite happy to hear tt la, finally kenna praised by a teacher=x well, she knew our class did study but aft some reflections with us, she realise tt we noe the concepts and wad to write but dunno when or wad to 'spill' back to them when a qn is being asked.. so she was saying she will be tackling on tt aft teaching the syllabus.. for me, i think the main problem is still tt bah.. could nt answer the qn fully and hence could nt score.. think gonna practise more and hopefully can do better and get a D by prelims=)

GP was some wad unexpected also la.. tot i would hav failed the paper which most of the cohort would hav.. but shocking, i managed a 47 and was nearing a D grade.. compo was a bit disappointed cos had some dumb grammer errors which i eventually gt marked down on.. for compre was like all thos short qn killed me.. 3/15 for short qns.. summary was mainly tt i could nt paraphrase all pts correctly if nt i could hav gotten a 6 or 7 i think.. vocab is improving or hav to say, slowly back to normal standards=p 2.5/5 i think.. well, think for GP i nid more compre practice lor.. maybe hav to continue wad mrs wong(sec sch english tuition cher) used to do with me.. using of a vocab bk.. speaking of her she still owes me a present and a treat for me getting a B3 for o's sia..=.=

GSC was the best performing subject.. basically nt much reflection abt it, jus think tt the cher who teachs u a particular subject can determine wad kind of grades u get.. CTT died from my sight and ah soh came back.. immediately gt back my B.. ah soh was like saying CTT will be coming to our class next wk.. maybe i shall considering smashing my results on her face and 吐它=x(lionel likes saying this) realise the 'ta' i used??=x

well, aft mid yrs is like a big wake up call for us and i realise hw near we are to doomsday.. gonna study harder and get my spot in NTU fine arts.. my cousin said the vacancy is low therefore i nid a better grades if nt i will at SIM or gg to engine courses-.-

till den.. everything has a beginning has an end.. i guess the end is here..

breezed..

9.7.08

back in sch aft a special 6 days study break.. cos others onli hav like 5 days.. went for my sis' commencement ceremony @ NUS.. some pics taken there..





anw.. gt back some of my mid yr results liao.. so far ok lor.. starting from the best, GSC.. gt a B.. think will be my best results overall le.. GP also passed.. gt E.. nt bad... but den hor i dunno why, the ass clown mr lim still ask me go remedial.. dunno sia.. and ya its u mr lim.. buei song ask me make public apology lor-.- econs also pass sia.. gt S.. maybe gt moderation.. i hope.. lastly for phy.. probability of passing is like quite impossible la.. need get 40/60 for paper 2 to get 45/100 on overall.. hmm.. but hor, at least better than luvluv.. think he get full marks for paper 2 also D or E i think..(no offence ar luvluv=xx)

hmm.. today miss tan quite unusual sia.. tot will kenna 2hrs of hell but didn't sia.. maybe she gave up on our class.. either that or she has forgotten to bring her cane/whip/knife or dunno wad weapon bah=x xs, scarly ar she rly like wad we say tt time ar.. less by hw many marks whip hw many times-.- nvm.. tml finally gt pe.. finally can run on track, probably la.. hope can play some new sports or sth.. dun tell me tennis again sia.. so boring cos we cant even play a 3 strokes rally-.- anw.. sky tan's body gao gao sia..o_o

till den.. no hope for maths and phy..

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7.7.08

sunday's another gd day for us to shop for our backpack.. met with ken and zj and went queensway de limited ed. hoping for a good and limited backpack.. too bad.. the bag gab bought tt time was no longer available and the onli backpack there was kinda 'colourful' and kiddy.. den we went for lunch at the curry chicken.. tot the price will increase luckily it didn't=x anw.. still as tasty as usual but the serving is obvoiusly getting smaller.. nvm.. aft tt, went zinc and set off for vivo..

took 855 and was talking rot with them.. den we were talking abt some noobs playing dota.. wad buy 4 boots of travel / 5 bracers etc.. well, reached vivo and walked ard, looking for an ideal backpack.. went nike and adidas but still no catch sia.. whole vivo, restaurants many many but backpacks few few.. hmm.. also couldn't find beanies for hou ji's bdae present.. lol.. nvm.. anw.. went back from vivo to jurong point while zj left us to meet his family cos his granddad bdae..

waited for ken to cut his hair and walked ard jurong point.. went to the "all bags" shop and saw way more backpacks than we seen in vivo and queensway-.- somemore the prices is cheaper lor, with comparison to similar designs.. wa.. town scam ppl $$ sia-.- make ppl travel there den still gonna pay more.. tmd..

tml shall be gyming with xl and zj den mahjong with xs lao da and probably ong or ys.. hope 1 of them can make it bah if nt i gonna call my mum and its gonna be ownage-.-

till den.. wad ch says is true sometimes..

breezed..

6.7.08

gone aunt's hse for gathering cos my uncle was back from canada.. kinda missed him though but was quite sian.. anw.. nth much happened also.. haben find a chance to take a foto with him.. shall find 1 next time, before he leaves.. had a conversation with my cousin regarding army life and aft jc life of a guy..

realised serving ns is no longer as hectic and torturous as before.. well, can relax abit lor.. however, he had 1 sentence for me though.."jus follow wad they says and be obedient.." no pt being a hero or speak out.. really..

till den.. if silence is gold, i rather be poor..

breezed..

5.7.08

5.56.. still waiting..

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time now 4.44am.. i'll be waiting..

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4.7.08

i m always getting into trouble and say wrong things when i am down man.. die..

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study break day 2: woke up at abt 12 today and was late for the lunch session with ch.. heng he gd enuf to forgive me.. haha.. alw late de sia me=xx haha.. this time is overslpt.. seriously couldn't rmb when was the last time i meet ppl and i was earlier de.. haha.. anw.. went 302 for lunch cos there cheaper.. aft tt, went to sch with yl also..

haha.. went for tt dumb maths thing.. the qn are like.. wtf are u talking abt.. gt australian essence somemore-.- haha.. but anw, 94/145.. haha.. noob sia=x aft tt went hm and watched finish the zhong ji yi jia.. haha.. den went bball with clem, morgan, ken, ys, xl, ong and yj.. actually playing at southview wan whr i can own cos used to the rim but there gt some trng sia.. so nvm lor.. cos the ppl trng we noe de and quite pro=x(gt benedict and ah bao sia=x) haha..

den we went opposite kranji tt wan play.. haha.. play till 10+ 11 den went back le lor.. cos the lights off le.. haha.. but at there i also nv rly play bball, instead, we played volleyball with yj.. haha.. she bought a new beach volleyball for her poly sports sem i think den we were playing in the middle of the court.. den clem and xl kept 'aiming' the carpark.. in the end, both were forced to back face carpark so tt the ball wun fly there again.. haha.. anw, playing volleyball rly torture hand sia.. esp when gt sand on it!! haha.. den yj was there saying, pain long le de wun feel anything liao..(sounds like wad yl told me before also.. haha..) but play till wun pain its like still torturing mah, but cannot feel the torture nia=xx haha..

anw.. right ankle starts to sore again.. sian.. but feel gd, cos i gt life sia.. staying at hm is a BIG BOO man.. jus now me and ys were also saying abt tt.. wth, if 5 days everyday stay at hm is like fking no life lor.. haha.. i agree la.. he still said sth like this:"yi ge ren zai jia zhe yang sian.." haha.. its like, u whole day at hm in front of com of sth.. den do wad sia?? eat slp watch utube meh?? haha.. nt as if ur mum v chio scared ppl come steal or wad.. haha.. nvm.. no offense to anyone, but if u think u are 1 of them, den i hav to say:"ah dey, get a life man.." haha..

till den.. i am like 1 of them tml sia=( lol..

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3.7.08

finally, hectic 1 1/2 wks passed.. mid yrs is officially over.. and so is me..=x jus a quote from zj to tell u hw today paper was.. "wa.. 40 qns i nv use calculator at all lor.. every qn is like drawing toto.." lol.. obviously it was a hard wan la.. but heng paper 2 ok.. think can pass paper 2.. paper 1 shld be borderline pass while paper 3 is cfm fail bah.. so overall for phy, the best results possible is probably a D bah.. haha.. and thats the best i can get le bah, assuming error carried forward and careless mistakes are few few..

well, study break finally comes.. like wad it means, its meant for ppl to study and take breaks la.. so, me zj ken and gab went town gai gai today..(ytd) looking for an ideal backpack but somehw ppl jus dun sell backpacks.. boo.. and under professional speculation(again..), i suppose the demand for backpacks in sg is nt tt high lor.. but seriously the demand is actually high de cos from wad i noe, a lot of ppl are also like us, looking for a backpack.. gab is fortunately enuf to get a NIKE SB while we are still 'hunting' for 1.. nvm.. shall look for more places for tt.. today also went watch hancock..

i will give the movie a 3.5/5.. well.. storyline was quite dumb, a man and woman who doesn't age and has lived for millenniums.. but hancock is fking imba la.. cannot die and gt iron body.. machiam zohan lidat.. lol.. nowadays ppl rly wanna be invincible a lot sia.. even watch de movie de ppl also must be invincible.. lol.. but ok la.. quite funny though, if gt time shld go watch since its study break..(applys to probably PJ onli bah=xx)

well, last thing to say.. get a life man.. and things that are lost shld be taken back, at all cost..


till den.. noobs hav no life..

breezed..